Why don't you come here to see me talk to me: Soko 專題

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相信這影片有不少人都看過，Soko她本人跟她的歌We Might be Dead Tomorrow都有出現在裡面。

接觸Soko的音樂已經有一年多，ipod上的每個歌單都總會有幾首她的歌，她的歌可以說是那種無論心情好壞也合適的歌吧。

Soko是個大膽，爽直的人。她的歌詞裡沒有艱深的概念，沒有天花龍鳳的東西，只是單純表現年輕人的情感和想法，當然大多都是女孩子的想法。她也不介意把自己全部展現出來。

她的歌大多的都只是輕輕用結他彈奏，夾雜著鼓聲、貝斯(她最愛的樂器)同電子琴等，節奏簡單，再加上帶點沙啞的少女歌聲。

身為一個完全獨立的歌手，她的MV都是她親手設計跟拍攝的，雖然成本甚低但卻另有一番味道，她甚至試著用三個月時間在她自己的房間裡錄她的出道專輯(雖然失敗告終)。

我希望這幾晚通宵寫成的專題能讓你認識及了解Soko，並試著喜歡她的音樂。

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‘As an artist I am shy. Always. But I like to narrate my emotions.’

(作為一個藝人我是比較怕羞的。一直都是。但我喜歡把我的情感表現出來。)

Soko, Stéphanie Sokolinski

Sokolinski (28) 在法國出生，自懂性以來她就習慣被稱為Soko，在她5歲時父親就離開人世了。她在16歲便輟學，離開家園獨自到巴黎跟隨Eva Saint-Paul學習演戲，一年後她重新了她的學業，輾轉的很快又厭倦學習，再次退學，之後她就開始她的演藝事業。在2006年時，透過某電影制作人的幫助下，Soko正式開始唱作之路。

“I’m not that well known as an actress, I’m not like a superstar becoming a pop star. I’m a no-one becoming a someone. When I was 16, I went into acting school with all these singing class, dancing and a lot of weird stuffs. But I was the worst at singing class so I thought it's very unlikely that I was ever gonna do music.But then I started acting from 16 to 20, and I am really bored of that. I didn't want a life that is incomplete. You can be creating things on your own. and I wanna to be self-productive. So I started writing songs and learning instruments when I was 20.”

(我不是一個有名的演員，我不像那些由演藝巨星變成的流行歌星。我只是想那一無是處的我變得更有價值。我16歲的時候，我到了演藝學校裡學習，裡面有唱歌，跳舞跟其他古怪的課程。我在唱歌班中是唱得最差的那個，所以我以為自己永遠都不會制作音樂。但在16至20歲這段時候我開始了我的演藝生涯，我真的感到很厭倦。我不想我的人生就是這麼沒趣，我也可以創造自己的東西，我想親手打造我的作品。因此我20歲時開始寫歌，開始學樂器。)

"When I was a kid, I was very shy and I've got no friend I found hard to communicate with others even I have 5 brothers and sister. "
(我小時候沒什麼朋友，我很害羞，因此我沒有什何朋友。即使我家中有5個兄弟姊妹，我都找不到人傾訴。)

"Basically, I have lost my dad when I was 5 …and I have been confronted to numerous tragedies through the years..
so i grew up with the knowledge that life is so fragile, and that there might be no Future, only a NOW.. so we need to make the most of it..
which has conducted me to live a very passionate, full on, adventurous life.. with intense relationships.. and live every day as if it was my last, to it's fullest.. trying to achieve to make it the richest and happiest and most loving.. to make sure that i can look back and be satisfied with all I've seen, felt, lived."

(是這樣的，我5歲時就失去了父親，而在這些年來我遇過太多不幸的事情了… 因此我從小就覺得生命是很脆弱的，也許根本就沒有未來，但我們還有現在…所以我們就更應充分活出人生…這種想法讓我一直過著一個熱情滿載，又冒險的人生。有著無比親蜜的關係。我把每一天都當作最後一天，盡量過得豐盛。試著把人生變得最豐盛、最開心、最多愛。要確保當我回頭看這個人生所見、所感、所活時能感到滿足。)

2007年，Soko 跟當時的拍檔 Thomas Semence 合作發表了第一張迷理專輯 Not Sokute，當中包括了惡名昭彰的 "I'll Kill Her" 。

"I'll Kill Her"出乎意料地得到聽眾的喜愛，它在某些音樂排行榜裡榜上有名。甚至可以說是這首歌令Soko名氣變大。

可笑的是Soko個人並不太喜歡這首歌。"I'll kill Her" 其實是Soko為朋友而在她自己的房間裡錄製並發布上 Myspace.com的一首歌

"Say you want to do a huge painting, and you make a little black and white sketch on a napkin and you’re like, ‘I want to do that with a lot of colour and really big’. Then people are like, ‘Oh no, this one on the little napkin is really good, we should put in in a museum’. But that’s not what you want to do."

( 這就像，當你想畫一幅很大的畫，你就先在一張小布上做了個黑白的草圖，然後在想著加上很多的顏色而且把它畫得大大的…結果人們卻對那張小小的草圖說:「嘩，這個畫著草圖的布很棒哦，我們應該把它放在展覽廳!」。但這卻不是你想做的。)

Soko - I'll kill her 我會殺了她 (中文翻譯) 一首女孩的失戀歌 ㄍ裡面有Soko現場錄製的MV

但在Soko準備著第一張專輯，而她的歌手生涯正要起飛之際，她突然在09年一月，從Myspace宣佈她要退出，並說"SoKo 已經死了"。她說她怕了這個音樂產業，並想重新投入演戲。


(Soko在Myspace的退出宣言)

“I’ve read that people are wondering if i quit music .. i DID. Basically, it’s well known that I don’t wanna be a part of the music industry … I've never planned on doing music, so everything that has been happening has been so amazing and i’m really grateful but it’s really scary for me .. and I’m just at that period of my life where I wonder if it’s really what I want : telling my stories to a lot of people that i don’t know .. seems really egoticentric to me … and that’s not what i’m about.”

(我看到有人問我是否真的放棄了音樂，我可以答是的。其實大家都知我一直都很討厭這個產業，我從沒計劃過要去創作音樂，所以我也沒想過這一切會進展得這麼好。我很感激但同時亦感到害怕、畏懼。也許這只是重新思考自己的真正的想法。把我的故事分享給不認識的人這種做法太過自我中心了，這也不像我。)

“I did a record in a studio, that had cost a lot of money .. and I didn't like it cuz it sounded too much like a studio record and not enough like my garage band crap that i like more … and i had no money to remix it. I thought it was a sign that I shouldn't put it out … not now .. maybe in 10, 20 years … but not now. Music is still the most precious thing I have.. the only amazing thing living in me… I didn’t wanted to ruin it by letting it out too early”

(我就著在錄音室裡錄製我的專輯，這花了我很多錢…雖然還是錄了，但我卻不喜歡。因為它太過像是一隻在錄音室裡錄製的作品，這跟我喜歡的那種粗制濫造的垃圾音樂太不像了。我也沒有錢再錄一次，我想也許這是一個信號，我還不能推出我的專輯，可能未來10年、20年會，但不是現在。音樂仍然是我最珍重的東西，我生命中唯一很讚的東西，我不想太早把專輯發表出來，那會破壞我的音樂。)

但在同年八月Soko就宣佈自己"復活"了，並在2012年二月出了她第一張專輯 I Thought I was an Alien 。

這張專輯開首的歌 I Just Want To Make It New With You 中的開頭就帶出了一個的信息 :
"You will discover me through my songs
你將能在我的歌裡認識到我
learn my heartbreaks and fears and depression
了解我的心碎，恐懼和抑鬱
hear all the cracks and the lack of talent
聽了這些充滿裂縫，沒有才能的人所寫的歌
and i hope that you don't hate me by then
我希望你聽完後不會討厭我吧"

Soko - I Just Want To Make It New With You (中文翻譯)

跟EP不一樣，這張專輯不像以前那般忸怩作態，反而裝載著她的抑鬱和對生與死的不適。當中因 First kiss 這在 Youtube 爆紅的影片而廣為人知的 We might be dead by tomorrow 是這張專輯的主打歌，也是 Soko 在專輯中最喜歡的歌。

大家不必為Soko的大膽演出而感到驚訝，她本來就是一個得過獎的專業演員

"to me this is the most heavy & meaningful song of my album.. the one that represents me the most."

(對我來說，這首歌是整張專輯裡最沉重最有意義的。這是最能代表我的歌)

"I wanted to use color film for the "love" images, and black and white to capture the threat of death.. As a reminder of "live your life NOW, love NOW, don't wait til you're dead".. i hope that comes through ? i want this LOVE NOW message to get imprinted in everyone's head and people to get somehow less flaky with love.. and just go for it.. instead of making excuses for not being open or able to love.."

(在影片裡，我想用彩色的去代表愛，黑白代表死亡。這是去提醒你現在就去活著，現在就去愛吧，不要等到你死的時候才後悔。你明白嗎? 我想讓這種想法深深的插入人的腦海中，讓人投放更多熱情去愛，並去愛吧。不要再找藉口去封閉自己的愛或說自己不能去愛。)

以下的這段訪問能讓你更了解 Soko (因時間關係以下的段落我都沒有翻看或檢查過):

"I Hope I won't be dead because I am afraid of death. Because I have so many people dying in my family when I was a children. So I don't Want to take anything granted in my life."

我希望我不會死, 因為我害怕死亡，因為我小時候家裡有太多人死去。所以我不會把生存視為理所當然

"I have really terrible problem with lies, I think it is one of my biggest fear. I don't think I am a good liar at all. Even I tried, I think I'd betray myself very easily. I like people to be very honest and I try to be very honest with all the people, but most with myself. That's the most important. "

我最大的問題是謊言。謊言是我最大的恐懼。我不覺得自己能說謊，即使我試著說，我仍是過不了自己的關口。我喜歡誠實的人，我亦盡量對所有人誠實，對自己更甚。這是最重要的

"And about the fact that I do love women, I've always had been attracted by people , in general, I don't care if they are men or women. And I just love the beautiful people with the beautiful soul. That make me feel good and that I have admiration for and I feel passionate about. It doesn't really matter if it's women or men. And I cherish those special people with the same passion."

對於我喜歡女性這個事實，我會說，不管對方是男或者女，只要他們是擁有美麗靈魂的人都能吸引我。這讓我感覺很好，讓我充滿敬佩，充滿熱誠。不管男女，我都會用同樣的熱情去對待他。

"I am not one of those person who can imagine things to write that I don't know about or I just feel like I need to write about vital things because the music that touches me is when I feel like people really mean what they say. And I want to hear about people's experiences in what they really feel other than like generic lyrics where I feel like I don't know the person at the end song and they are just talking about general feelings so like everyone can relate to it but I don't care about that. It doesn't touch me as much as writing about people's experiences and things that are viable."

我不是那種能靠想像去寫自己不認識的東西的人，我覺得我需要寫一些生命必需的東西。我覺得能把真實的想法直接顯露出來是最能讓我感動的。相比起那些不能塑做人物的大眾化的歌詞，我更喜歡聽人們真實的經驗。有很多歌的歌詞說的都是很大眾的感情跟想法，大家都能代入去，但我卻不喜歡這樣歌，還是真實的經驗能打動我。

"I love monkey And I watch monkey video all the time. It's like if they love each other, they gloom each other and they give love to each other and they sing together. And if they get angry, they are just gonna fight. And that's just what they do. They don't hide their feeling. It's like animal instinct. I think that's what I have."

我愛猴子，我很愛看猴子的影片。這是因為牠們的行為都很隨性，愛的時候就會替對方梳毛，開心時唱歌，憤怒時打架。牠們就是這樣，不會隱藏自己的感覺，就像是動作的直覺。我覺得自己也是這樣的

"I don't care if people want to do what the fuck they want as long as they are not trying to kill me or trying to rape me, or trying to do something bad to me. I don't care what they do as long as they don't hurt my friends or family. Of cause I am against war and of cause I am against murderers and of cause I am against violence and I absolutely hate it. Th'st just common sense, you know. It not like I am not brothering by people's habit or like people like 'Don't you hate when people...infront of you". No I am no point to judge, People should be more open minded and tolerence.