KJ52 - Fanmail
(KJ-52是一個天主教饒舌歌手，他寫的歌都不錯，只是無神主義的我不能投入其中。)
‘My arms are sliced up but I'm not embarrassed
我的手臀上都是痕但我並不為此尷尬
It's the only way I get attention now from my parents
這是唯一能得到父母關注的方法
It's not like they really take the time to be caring
父母都好像不怎理會我
They just use me to watch the baby when they run they errands
他們只是把我看成他們寶寶的褓姆好讓他們出門
My name is ___ I got a friend named Karen
我的名字是——我有個叫Karen的朋友
She gave me your CD with the tracks form Eminem
她給了一張你的CD，還有些阿姆的歌
You wrote a song called #1 fan I listened and
我聽了你寫的那首"#1 fan"
I wanted to know if you can help me like you was helping them’
我想知道你能幫助我嗎? 就像你在歌裡幫其他人般
She had something even harder to be mentioning
這個女孩還有更多的難處
‘Like every single day I struggle just with fitting in
我每一天在掙扎著, 就只是想融入大家
Plus the boys won't give me no attention and
再加上男孩子都對我沒興趣
I get teased and made fun of by all my friends and then
我還被朋友作弄跟嘲笑
See I'm feeling like I'm wishing now that I could end
我現在真的覺得很想就這樣了結我的生命
My life cuz I'm sick and tired of all the time I spend
因為我再也受不了這樣的人生
Trying to figure out how I could be worth anything
這個一直在尋找自己生存意義的人生
Can u help me KJ from your fan’
你能幫我嗎? 你的粉絲上
I'm writing this letter
我在寫著這封信
Cause I have to tell ya
全因我想告訴你
I need some help from you
我需要你的幫助
I'm writing this letter
我在寫著的這封信
I hope that you get it
我希望你會收到
I need some help from you
我需要你的幫助
"I live with my mom ever since my parents split
自從我父母離婚後我就跟媽媽住在一起
And At home I spend my time on the Internet
我在家時都在上網
Looking at porn Im addicted and I'm sick of it
上癮的看成人片，我很討厭這樣的自己
Myspace dot com is mostly where I'm getting it
我通常都在 Myspace.com 裡看
On top of that there's videos that I can watch
我當然知道有其他的影片我可以看
And I really wanna quit but its like I can't stop
我真的很想停止這行為，但我就是停不了
See I'm scared that I'm just gonna get caught
我現在很害怕有一天自己會因此而被補
And when I see a girl all I think is dirty thoughts
當我看見女孩時我腦裡都是骯髒的想法
And its not that I don't know that it's really wrong
我不是不知這樣是錯的
But its right there for me every time I'm logging on
但當我上網時，我就總能看到
I got all your CD's I really like your songs
你每張CD我都有，你每首歌我也喜歡
Well I downloaded em but anyway moving on
雖然全部都是下載的，但還是先說下去吧
My screen name is KJ-52 is the bomb
我的網名是 "KJ-52勁爆"
I want to do a website KJ rock's dot com
我想做一個關於你的網站
I really some help cuz I can't tell my Mom
我真的需要你的幫助，因為我不能把這告訴媽媽
Oh by the way my real name is ___"
噢我的名字是____
I'm writing this letter
我在寫著這封信
Cause I have to tell ya
全因我想告訴你
I need some help from you
我需要你的幫助
I'm writing this letter
我在寫著的這封信
I hope that you get it
我希望你會收到
I need some help from you
我需要你的幫助
"I took the time just to write you
我花了些時間去寫這封信
We play you every Wednesday at my youth group
我們每個星期三都會在青年團體那播你的歌
I love your music and we all think that you's cool
我很喜歡你的音樂，我們大家都覺得你很棒
But I been struggling ever since I moved to a new school
但是自從轉校之係我就覺得很辛苦
See everybody thinks that I'm the perfect Christian girl
學校的每個人都覺得我是個虔誠的天主教女孩
I had a hard time trying to believe that God is real
但其實我一直都對神是否存在而深感疑惑
I've been on mission trips and camps the whole deal
我參加過很多令我相信神是存在的活動
My dad had cancer tho I prayed that God would heal
我的爸爸患了癌症，我已向神希望祂能醫好我的父親
But he died anyway so it's hard to feel
但爸爸還是死了，我真的很難受
Like he cares about me so was it God's will
我的爸爸真的很疼我，
To take away my dad I really got a raw deal
但神卻這樣帶走他，這太不公平了
Sometimes I just want to swallow all my mom's pills
有時我真的想把我媽媽的藥吃掉
When I pray I really doubt it
我祈禱時都抱有懷疑
I've lost my way or maybe I've never found it
我迷茫了，我覺得我再也沒法找回正途
I been smoking and drinking nobody knows about it
我一直在抽菸、喝酒，都沒有人發覺
By the way my name is ___ don't mispronounce it..."
說起來，我的名字是___，啊，別讀錯哦
If I could write to every kid that's out there
如果我能給所有的孩子寫封信
Every kid that's hurting feels like nobody cares
每個受傷的孩子都覺得沒人關心
I would tell them that God can wipe away tear
我會告訴他們神會幫他們擦去眼淚
And he's right near and I would say it quite clear
祂就在你的身邊，我能很確定的跟你說
Your here for a reason you're not a mistake
你能出生在這個世界是有理由的，你並不是個錯誤
You are a special creation that God himself made
你是神親手造的，你是特別的
To the victims of abuse to every girl that was raped
我想跟那些受到虐待的受害姐，那些被強暴的女孩
You can live you can be free from your pain
你是可以從痛苦中重新活過來的
And find strength and no longer be ashamed
你可以找到力量並再不感到羞恥
You can find peace and hope In Jesus name
在神的名下你能得到平靜跟希望
You aint gotta live with this hurt every day
你就不會每天痛苦的活著
Christ came to give you life in a much better way
神會給你一個更好的人生
To every kid right now that's full of hate
給那些充滿怒火的孩子們
And bitterness I'd tell em just to give it all away
那些充滿苦澀的孩子們，請你們放下那些想法吧
To the one that came to take all the blame
把你的痛苦都交給神
That's what I'd write here's what I'd say
這就是我想寫的，我想說的
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| KJ-52, Jonah Kirsten Sorrentino |
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